Lessons learned IN HINDSIGHT from an upbringing in dysfunction and from caring for my mom. My intentions are to bridge my past with the present through my perspective in pictures, writing, etc. Sharing is therapeutic. In helping myself, I pray I help others.
This is mom today, Oct. 24, 2013. She is having one of her "in a far country" dementia episodes. She is extremely paranoid, delusional, disoriented, combative, and uncooperative. This is saddening because I have never seen mom in this way. Cuss words were used as if she was a master cussologist. She doesn't care about who she hurts or how she talks. I really hate seeing her this way.
In life, my mom was passive. Today she exhibited an unhealthy mix of verbal aggression and a rambunctious presentation style. This was not the day to wear your feelings on your sleeves, nor to take what she said personal. Everyone in her path was a target, and she was an out of control shooter!
This was recorded after telling mom
that she has to stop hitting people. She was not receptive and resorted to this
“childlike” behavior. This type of behavior is common when she does not get her
way, and/or is mad with me. She becomes childish and uncooperative during these
moments. For me, it’s very frustrating because sometimes it is evident that she
is purposely acting out. Like a child, she uses these expressions for
manipulation. I usually end the visit because I don’t want her to believe she
is pulling my strings. Amazingly, when she sees I’m about to leave, she’ll
agree to stop acting out. MANIPULATION!
